When I reflect on my experience with bias, prejudice and oppression, I think the experiences that hurt the most were the ones that happened on the "sly". When I say the "sly" I mean that it was done in a passive aggressive manner. The experience that I have been thinking about the most lately was when I was working as a Director of a Child Care Center. When I was first hired to create a child care center from scratch. My boss who was a male, only expected me to work with the children because he believed that was my "place". When we first opened we were having some financial issues because we didn't have enough families yet. I had worked at a center before and wanted to share my financial experience with my boss because I had overcome the same problem at my previous job. I went to my boss with my idea, and basically was told not to worry about it, just to worry about the children because that was what I was good at, because women were good caretakers. At the time, because he said it in a laughing manner, I didn't let it get to me, but now I know I was a victim of sexism.
The way my story diminished equity, was I wasn't even given the chance to try my idea because I was out of my "lane". Our business ended up suffering, until we hired a financial consultant who was a woman. When I shared my idea with her, she tried it, and it worked, We were out of debt within 3 months.
The feelings that were brought up because of this was hurt, confusion and the feeling that I wasn't good enough, or smart enough to run a child care center. It also hurt my professional feeling because it made me feel like I was only the "babysitter" and that was it.
The fact that someone was hired and heard me out, lets me know that my boss had to be moved aside so that I could have an opportunity to try out my idea, that ended up working.
It's so funny now that I am able to spot different isms out, before I knew about them, but wasn't so aware. Now I am fully aware and find myself pointing them throughout my week.